☠️Getting High And Stoned☠️

{Getting High And Stoned}


Day after day
night after night
living in the hood watching the sun fades away into the blackish-blueish skies splattered with glowing stars twinkling over our heads each night

As the sounds of gunfire rings out nearby in the hood where me and my family lives at and as we try to sleep without worrying if we are gonna survive through the night and this is all chalked up at between the lines where you just might find my lifeless carcass is left laying lifeless and cold as the blood runs blood red cold like ice in the Antarctica that freezes us to the bone


And this is just another day around the way in my neck of the woods or let's say my hood


And you run to the pig's but the pig's don't help the hood rats and this is a damned shame that the world looks at us like this but change is supposed to be coming but this will never be because we are just a lost cause that no one has never seen after all


And we are a fucking menace II society and fuck the free world and fuck you and fuck me because no one is fucking free we are all still slaves in one way or another if you actually think about it


And let's get high and let's get stoned and fuck this corrupted world up that's living in the end of day's anyways but people are to blind and to dumbfounded to see past their own stupidity that keeps them high and blinded like the last buckner of the yester year's


And let's get high and let's get stoned because one day we shall no longer be here so fuck the free world cockamamie bull shit and let's keep it real because we ain't into this fake friend's and fake bull shit not here and not today or another other day either


And we are still living in a society with  modern slavery that include forced labour and human trafficking, sexual exploitation, debt bondage and forced marriage and anymore who is forced to work or marry and cannot refuse or leave is a victim of modern day slavery so fuck our corrupted lying politicians, governor's, democrats and republicans and our so called president because in their eyes we have never madder at all in the first place 



©t.l.g. all rights reserved 3/1/2020

Thug Poetry

{Thug Poetry}



Living in the hood gangster paradise thuggishly fighting to feed my family while slanging dope on the next street corner trying to survive another fucking day as I pray that the dope show doesn't cancel my life before me by a hood~rat~tat~tat~tat

rat~tat~tat~tat

While trying to survive in this hood gangsters paradise in this hood while I have slanging dope to feed my family while the police and the DEA {Drug Enforcement Administration} is beating my door down while throwing my husband and kid's on the floor as I want tell my husband and kid's I'm sorry for the hassle with these pigs treating you all like trash but this is the only way these hood streets showed me how to make a dollar and survive even though it's a crime but I'm sorry


rat-rat-tat-tat



but when the blow won't work any more so you start to stress out because you are merely a hood-rat that's another addictt trying to reach that final destination high way past the heaven's above you so keep reaching because it will be lethal like a deadly weapon blowing your brains out all over these walls


because this gangster runs these fucking streets before you while you barely snort that fucking blow as it goes all up in smoke without a blink of an eye and while you keep on puffing and huffing that blow and shooting up that nose while huffing and puffing the weed straight pass that dumbass addicted addict you and to all my blow and smoke that keeps you and America higher than a kite rolling higher than the Russian space station floating around in deep space nine


And this is a straight up thuggish life and a rat-tat-tat at your front door




©t.l.g. All Rights Reserved  August 6,2018

Once Mine

He was once mine

He was once my lover

He was once my boyfriend

He once held the sparkles in my eyes in a trance making time stand still

He once made my heart skip many of rhythmic beats until my heart ran cold because of his deceiving deception that he always wore upon his arm like a cold blooded sleeve that cut my heart from my chest with a dulling sword ripping my love apart for him

He once blessed me with two beautiful children that he has turned them against me because he knows that kills me more than anything on this planet

He once told me he loved me but I honestly know that was a lie from his lying corrupted lips

He once kissed my lips

He once made love to me

He once cuddled up with me

He once embraced my lips with his

He once caressed my body against his making it once feel like heaven moving earth

He once broke my heart

He once cheated on me

He once was my everything that made my life feel like it was worth living but then the unthinkable happened then we went our separate ways


©t.l.g. all rights reserved 1/14/2020

Cure For Addiction

As I lay me down to sleep


and hope to God that I shall wake without a peep as the sheep countless jump through my mind while one pill is still on my mind like father time

And as I lay here pondering with addiction running through my mind like a ramped rampage that's running out of time as I lay my child in the grave for one last time as we all hope and wish for a cure that we will never find this is an addiction is like a crime will this be the last time as I lay me down to sleep and pray the Lord my soul to keep


and hoping


and praying for one more day so I will not have to hear my mother weeping


and shedding a tear because she lost her poor child from a puff or from a snort or from shooting up or from popping a pill or from smoking a blunt or overdosing on the next pill while being up on blueberry hill and we all hope for a cure but there's no way for a cure because you are just an poor old addict that has to push back from that last high because it's not a disease you're the only disease within yourself as I pray God for his almighty help as I look to my God and my dear mama for their unconditional love but will I die in this incurable hell that I've made for myself while waiting for the next addict to scream this is a disease but as I scream saying fuck that you made yourself an addict but we didn't make ourselves sick with this disease that lives inside of us you cuckoo foolish man or woman


©t.l.g. all rights reserved 2/23/2020

Behind These Blue Eyes

Behind these blue eyes where so much love still remains for you


But


Behind these blue eyes that are crying without you lighting my way to the once brighter day's that seems lost to us now behind these blue eyes


But


Behind these blue eyes no one else knows what it's like to be hated and misunderstood and unheard and forever unseen behind these sad blue eyes and however I still love you


But


Behind these blue eyes that has always been smitten by you but you pushed me away until I could no longer could hide my pain behind these blue eyes because darling I love you but I'm so lost behind these blue eyes without you


But


Behind these blue eyes are so dazed and confused while my mind is trying to grow and grasp a conscience but damnit it's like trying to live or die as these blue eyes are wet while I continue to keep on weeping like that long lost willow tree swaying in love for only you behind these blue eyes


But


Behind these blue eyes has these visions of us together as a husband and wife with our children by our side but that vision slipped through my fingers one night when you was away and I no longer have a reason to keep my broken dreams of us from dying like the last flame lit by you oh no this pain behind these blue eyes are life draining


But


Behind these blue eyes which has always loved you but you moved on without me and I am forever lost and why can't you see what this has done to me and does your conscience even care about no one but yourself 


But


Behind these blue eyes are crying and dying a slow lonely hell since my world has become so darkened because I no longer have you and why does my dreams have to be so empty like my conscience is empty and why do I still need help from loving you



But why can't you hear or see these blue eyes unless it's yelled at you or unless it's smacked in your face and you know you make me angry when you simply keep on ignoring me the way you always do and I feel like I'm drowning while slipping down beneath the waters that these blue eyes has forever cried and your only killing me while you keep driving me insane


But these blue eyes will never stop loving you and I will go down swinging to have you back in my world because I will not keep on being mistreated by you until you find it in your heart to start loving me once again and I am not a bad woman and only a sad woman remains behind these blue eyes and no one else understands because I'm laying in our bed where we've made so much love at now I am holding my pillow wishing it was only you but you slipped away like that last sip of moonshine that I drank since you departed from me


But


Behind these blue eyes doesn't know how to live without you and no I'm not telling lies I'm being realistic with you so stop pushing these blue eyes away because it's ripping my heart straight out of my chest while it's still beating all the pain behind these blue eyes




©t.l.g. all rights reserved 2/29/2020

You Never Loved Me

You never loved me

You never cared

You never cheated on me is what you always said to me

You never could tell me the truth about anything

You never supported me when I needed you the most

You always lied to me

You only used me for a piece of ass and intercourse

You didn't mind breaking my heart

You just didn't

And that's one reason why we didn't last

And now it's things I wish I could forever forget because I will no longer live in this awful regret that once haunted me but I am not willing to let it haunt me any longer because I love being footloose and fancy-free

©t.l.g. All Rights Reserved 2019

Delicate 🌹 Rose Bud

{Delicate 🌹 Rose Bud} 

She was a pure gentle delicate 🌹 rose bud that needed tender love and care because she was in fact so fragile that she had such a beauty that made her stand out on her own but the 🌹 rose bud was so scared that she would eventually break with the wrong little bitty move but she pushed on through to grow so big and strong that she could set out on her own way 

The fragile the little 🌹 rose bud

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Loving Him

{Loving Him}​​​​​​

 ​​​​​​ Loving him has been the best part of my life because he has given me unconditional love, support, courage, strength, and oxygen that he pump's into my lungs and body that makes me want to continue on with me battling my disease and beat it until it doesn't exist in my life anymore and he is my back~bone when I am to weak to stand on my own he pulls me through to another day when I want to give up and fade away like I never even existed in this world and it's very simple he is my everything that is good in my life and without him am sure I would give and die and he my biggest supporter and he is the one who is there helping me by comforting my aches and pains away like I am his queen that has stepped out of a fairytale to be his forever loving soul mate and wife and he is my king that is there with me through everything and he just doesn't get it how much he does mean to me 

Dedicated to my wonderful husband Jeff!

©t.l.g. 11/29/2017 all rights reserved

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My Chiari Journey

{My Chiari Journey} 

 My Chiari journey hasn't been easy~peasy but it's a journey I have never had to walk alone but I have always been chiari strong as the day's are long and as my conquering journey continues on

 ©t.l.g 11/29/2017 all rights reserved

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